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A couple weeks ago I had a miscarriage. It all happened so fast. We got off birth control in July, got pregnant in August and micarried in September! We weren't expecting to be pregnant so fast, so when my period didn't start I wondered if I was. I took a test and sure enough, I was! I was excited, but yet it just didn't feel real. It just felt off to me and I didn't know why. For some reason I had thoughts of possibly miscarrying, even though I surely didn't want that. When I started spotting on a Mon. night I called my doctor the next morning. The nurse said it was sometimes normal for Women to spot, especially in the first months. I never spotted with my others, but maybe this was different? She still got me in to see my doctor that afternoon. I just had a feeling I was miscarrying, so I had it in my mind that if I found out that I was, it was going to be okay. My doctor did a vaginal ultra sound, because he couldn't see anything over top. The sack measured about 5 weeks, but the weird thing was that there was nothing inside the sack. It was a little oval shaped thing, about an inch long. He said it looked like I started miscarrying way early, and that the sack was close to the cervix, getting ready to pass. Okay, it's okay, I was prepared for this, it's okay. And I really was okay. They took my blood and wanted me to come back a couple days later. In those couple days, I had the worst cramps ever! At first it felt like a very hard menstrual period, but then became more like labor pains. I took extra IB Prophen and still went to work. I'm fine, is what I always tell myself. I can handle this. Even with 4 IB Prophen in me I could still feel it and I was only at work for 15 min. when I really needed to get to the bathroom. TMI moment: I felt some fleshy stuff down in the area and once I sat down on the toilet out came a big ol' plop of tissue and blood. Well, that was it! Then I went back to work feeling normal! thank goodness that was over! I went back to the Doc that afternoon and he said everything looked good, my blood levels of pregancy hormone dropped a ton and that means my body was miscarrying properly. As soon as I knew I was miscarrying I prayed and prayed that I would pass this without any complications. I was worried about having sugery (DNC, whatever that stands for) cuz my sister had to have that 3 times, cuz she wasn't passing her babies. Before going to that, they give you some meds to help pass the baby, but I didn't even need that! I passed it quickly and safely, and I am so grateful for that! Thank you, thank you thank you, is all I can say. Ending on a good note, we can try again in a couple months! I really do feel blessed. I know either, it wasn't the right time, or there was something wrong with the baby and it stopped growing, and I'm grateful for that. Brent and I are so blessed to have 2 healthy, beautiful boys now, and can't wait to add another one into the family, on the Lords time.